Nausea

In my last post I mentioned that I hadn't been feeling well and that I would explain that in a later post. Well, now it's time. I've been sick for about two weeks with this strange nausea. It's always there but sometimes I feel okay while other times I am really sick. In the last two weeks I have lost almost 10 lbs. If it were under any other circumstance I would be rejoicing, but I lost it all by not being able to eat anything! It's sort of this feeling in the back of my throat that makes me feel like I might just throw up but I never do. It's always the worst in the morning and at night. Some days I can function just fine but others I feel like I can't do anything. Along with it, I have a sore throat but no other cold symptoms and feel extremely fatigued. I know that being tired is a symptom of my hypothyroidism but I can't explain the sore throat and nausea.

I thought that perhaps I was experiencing heart burn but I don't really know what that is supposed to feel like and it doesn't seem to be related to anything I eat. My throat also doesn't burn like you would expect when you think of heart burn. Taking antacids doesn't give me any relief whatsoever. Sometimes just getting food in my stomach helps a little bit but the feeling is always there.

I am so tired and sick that just getting the housework done on a daily basis is all I can manage so going for a walk is out of the question. I have been able to go a few days in the past two weeks but usually I just don't have the strength. Sometimes I think that either I'm starting to feel better or I'm just getting used to being sick all the time, but then I have another really bad day. Today is one of those days.

I know what some of you may be thinking, but you are wrong. According to three tests and my monthly visitor (who is actually my sometimes-every-40-days-visitor and who was 5 days late this time), I am not pregnant. I thought for sure I was because these are all classic pregnancy symptoms, but I was wrong, much to my great disappointment. I could handle the nausea if I knew that I would get a precious gift for it in the end, but now I have no answers and I just want it to stop. I didn't want to say anything about it before because I wanted to surprise my family with the news about the pregnancy but now there is no need to keep it a secret and at this point I don't mind if some people know because I really need some prayer. I feel like I'm just in survivor mode and doing the necessary chores (like keeping my family safe and healthy) and letting everything else slide.

I have a doctor appointment next Tuesday but I can't imagine feeling this way any longer. I am very thankful, however, that I did not feel sick on Thanksgiving or the day after. I ate more those two days than I have eaten over the last two weeks combined. Sadly, the next two days I was more sick than I think I have been since it all started. I hope to get some answers from my doctor next week and my medication will also be adjusted, so if this is all caused by my thyroid then maybe I'll start feeling better soon. Please pray for relief, strength, rest, and the ability to take care of my family even if I don't feel well. Thank you. I'll keep you posted.